Give Me Bananas

On some days I have to work from 9am-9pm. Today is one of those days.

A few years ago I maybe would have felt annoyed or even angry about it but now I don’t give it much thought anymore.

I rarely talk about “my ED past” because this is no recovery-blog (I have been recovered for a long time now) and it doesn’t identify who I am (anymore). However, knowing of my struggles might help understand why I think that happiness is so important.
Thinking about how I felt about working so long reminded me of how far I’ve come (yes, I like analyzing my thoughts).
Feel free to read on but if you don’t care that’s ok too. You can skip the rant and go to the food pictures .

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Nowadays I am (generally) a happy person only because I went through a time of self loathing. These times were awful and also affected my family (which made me feel even more miserable because I was the reason for their worry) but I got over it. Yes, I got over hating myself because it was pointless. It might sound a bit funny to you but it took me ages to get to that point. However, once I reached it, it felt like my life turned upside down. In a good way.
I’m a pretty rational and realistic person (deep down.. somewhere.. ) and knew that eventually there were only two ways for me:

- Accepting myself for who I am and start living my life the “real” way
- Continue to be miserable and be a burden to my family

Because and also with my family I managed to get out of this damn hole. Needless to say that they’re the most amazing people on earth to me (thanks kids! You’re awesome I could cry of joy were I not in an office right now ). My rational and realistic brain also told me that I’m a good person and deserved happiness. And even accepting that fact took such a long time! It all seems so simple to me now but it was such a fight to get there.

Long story short: You can choose to be happy and only you can bring real happiness to your life. No friends, family members, clothes, electronics or whatever can make you feel truly happy if you can’t stand yourself.

This is also why I started this blog: To (maybe) help other people who are struggling with positive thinking and also to send out good vibes to my dear readers out there (after all; reading uplifting things IS uplifting, isn’t it?)

 

Forgive my endless monologue but I’m currently on my dinner break and need some distraction from this:

 

You know, it’s relatively tasty and all but I’m not the biggest fan of microwaved frozen veggies. But they’re ok when you’re craving warm veggies and don’t have time to prepare some at home.  Well you’ve got to work with what you’ve got on hand..

 

Last night’s dinner was fantastic by the way. Definitely one of the best I’ve ever had. I need to go back there soon and bring my camera. You would all love it too I’m sure!

Breakfast was also stellar though (but much cheaper and made in my teeny tiny kitchen)

I love me some french toast! Why do some people not like this fabulous dish??

What made me super SUPER happy yesterday was that my ordered photo prints have arrived! I love making “real” albums of holidays (vacations) and little trips where I can add my own scribbles and “artwork”. I appreciate what modern technology brought/brings to us but I also like glossy photo paper and old school photo albums. Does anyone else feel the same?

 

 

By the way, it was so good to hear that I’m not the only one who likes celeb gossip. I love me some trashy magazines that claim every week that Brangelina have split.

Thanks for reading guys, it really means a lot to me.
Love yourself for who you are (because I think that you are pretty damn amazing).

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